Tears came to my eyes today as I read a post from an Ireland teammate. It touched something in my heart that seemed to be hidden. I long to be doing what makes me come alive. Ireland spoiled me in that I got a taste of this, and now back in the USA, that dream seems so far away. Working as a team, teaching, and listening brought fulfillment to my days and showed me my purpose. I found gifts that I didn't even know God had bestowed on me. To be working with others on a shared mission is amazing. I could see myself doing that for the rest of my life.
In some ways I feel trapped in Grand Rapids. What I want, doesn't seem to be here, but where am I left with that realization? It's this thought that makes my tears overflow. I know God is shaping me through these events and my heart's desire is to be ready to go when he calls, but sometimes the uncertainty and the enormous obstacles seem insurmountable.
Prayer is all I can do right now and it has been my purpose to pray about these concerns every day. I'm hoping soon, God will fill me on his plan and comfort my longing heart.
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