On Being Single

I very much like this article. I've been thinking about who I'm becoming and how singleness plays a part in this.

Recently I removed my relationship status on Facebook, which resulted in a Live Feed posting of, "Amanda is no longer listed as single." For two days now, I've been getting inquiries from friends, co-workers, and family about the details of this sudden change. Each time I laughed and said, "If I was in a relationship EVERYONE would know."

I sat talking with a girlfriend the other night and commented about how finding someone doesn't feel as pressing now later in my twenties than it did at the beginning. She commented on how I seem more comfortable with myself. I'm getting there. I'm trying to own my feelings and actions and to take the constant spin off my life. I don't want to live like I think I should live. I just want to live.

There's a lot a things about being single that I've grown to love and know I'll have to work out when/if a relationship comes along. I love not checking in with anyone; free to do what I want to do, when I want to do it. I love the freedom to travel and to stay out late. Though a boyfriend/husband would be nice when there's snow to shovel or garbage to take out. HA!

However there's aspects of close relationship that I would never give up. Soul-searching conversations and tearful confessions. Having someone know you so well, that they've seen how you've changed. Friends telling you things you need to hear and what you've never seen in yourself. Yes, I love deep relationships.

So right now it's not a matter of trying to feel content. I am content. RIGHT NOW. That's a good place to be.